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Unfair?

Unfair is me being insecure about my identity its Unfair to have been freed but still live as a enemy Unfair I was told that real men don't cry it's Unfair that now I'm older my tear ducts seem to have dried Unfair that I've had my heart broken multiple times Unfair that as a man I'm not allowed to express my feelings inside unfair that various celebrities are built off of various lies Unfair that the only emotion a man can be proud of is his pride Unfair that I never tried to lead protect & provide Unfair that as I'm writing this poem I'm at home texting back an forth with a girl tryna fill this void as big as the sky Unfair for me to tell her I love her Unfair for me to act like I never think of her Unfair for me to never date her based on the opinions of my brothers Unfair for me to question the possibilities of marriage based off her skin color Unfair that my mind has been conditioned this way for awhile Unfair that her heart is the victim of my selfishness child it's Unfair out of selfishness I keep calling her name then out uncertainty she responds but I no longer want her to stay Unfair that I ask God for clarity when I pray Unfair that When He provides the clarity most times I throw it away Unfair is the fact I'm fearful of others perceptions or their rejection Unfair is that's the real reason I'll prolly never pop a woman the question Unfair is Id rather appear than actually be Unfair is that all my peers are just wanna bees Unfair is all we wanna do is be like the celebrities those whom are currently runnin things but even the greatest people the seem great are wanna bees Unfair is that I believe I'm far from accepted Unfair is that people judge people based on complexion Unfair is me believing that God doesn't accept me, love me, or even want a relationship Unfair is knowing that the last Unfair is simply lack of belief Unfair is to believe I've always been Plan B

You know plan b, picked second, especially in relationships college taught me that girls like the idea of a good guy but a bad boy they'd rather experience then once they've been hurt washed up hope the good guy still comes near and it's... unrealistic HAHA real unrealistic while she was experimenting the good guy was just a witness. Finally concluded that good guys will never win this silly game but now unashamed, good boy turned bad is really runnin thangs use to be a good kid threw away the chivalry now he got a hundred names. Daughters nieces married mothers & baby mommas could careless about the details cause to him they are no longer females they've become objects. Quite similar to high end clothing for resale solely for his convenience a lot of men blame the media annnnnd truth be told it's what they been feeding us it's Unfair that the world we live in is misleading us no it's unfair everything we do is to satisfy the greed in us Unfair that insecurity is marketed as social media Unfair that it's all for the love of money Unfair that children are hungry & not just "out there somewhere" no there is starving children in our own countries but we'd rather save animals Unfair that I'm the biggest hypocrite claiming I want things to be different Unfair I look at my daily actions & I'm the one who is sentencin these kids to starvation cause rather than start saving I spend all my money on temporary cravings that moth & rust destroy that thieves break in & steal Unfair but ironic no matter how much I consume Im still unfulfilled? See I've realized I take the L in my feel stuck with a Fee (get it L outta FEEL stuck with a FEE) I can't change myself see I'm already into deep it's Unfair that God saw all this way before I could see before I was given eyes or even a mind to think Unfair before I was even thought of He dismantled the idea that anyone was plan B Unfair it was always plan A to send His Son on the scene Unfair is a perfect man dying for a few good men Unfair is being sent to a place were they're are no good men Unfair is paying The Fee so humanity doesn't take the L or think they gotta raise Monopoly to get of jail which could also be seen as Hell that's neither here nor there Unfair is knowing no matter what Your Fathers Will must prevail Unfair is dying for bad men dead in our sins Unfair is loving us that much to live die & rise again guaranteeing that sin & death have been defeated Unfair that this gift is made free.99 to the general public literally through the blood of Jesus Unfair all we have to do is believe & confess Jesus is Lord an walk it out like we believe with every step Unfair that not only did Jesus defeat death but because of what He did we can receive His inheritance Unfair that we can authentically be children of God the Father Unfair that no matter the circumstance Gods Love Agape never changes for His sons and daughters; Unfair that a God would reveal His Unfairness to me and it would be Unfair for me not to tell you all about the Love (Agape) I've been given for FREE...

In life its easy to look at the negative & tell ourselves things are unfair which may have some truth to it but even more so The God of the Universe; The Way The Truth The Light, The Creator Himself is in desperate pursuit of us to love us unconditionally; He promises us the purest most unfair love we will ever encounter & faithfully delivers on that promise time an time again for eternity. All we have to do is accept His free gift that we may enter into relationship with Him through what His Son Christ did on the cross for our sins rising again defeating both death & all sin to prove His power over all things just for me & you. Hope your encouraged & challenged to love yours knowing that your life has meaning, purpose that you are DEEPLY LOVED accepted by The God whose Love is Unfair.