Seems I've always been option #2 or plan B when it comes to romantic relationships with women ever since I can remember from the baby sitter who use to touch me at a young age. She taught me that I was attractive but that I would always be a option #2; that with me there need be no commitment just convenience an open door that any attractive female could walk in & out of as they pleased. Which would prolly explain why I had my first kiss in 1st grade & would think nothing of it why I would go on to date a girl whom I gave my all too only for her to friend zone me because of lack of convenience also known as long distance. Then to have a fling with a girl in college who was an Senior lookin for a cute guy to have around for convenience sake; only for her to tell me to lose her number weeks later because I wouldn't have sex wit her although from the jump I told her I was saving myself for marriage. But none of the heartache or late night "what if" contemplations seemed to effect anyone but me after every break up or inconvenience causing me to begin to fear will I ever find someone who loves me for me & can care for me just the same that I will care for them or better...
Then it hit me that I've always been Gods plan A; before the earth began God, "...called us with a holy calling not according to our works but according to His own purpose & grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began," His love doesn't come with any conditions that cause it to dwindle for us His love is UNCONDITIONAL. God has accepted me; even with all my flaws, mistakes, past failures, still He desires to have a PERSONAL relationship with me?!?! So much so He sent His only Son to die on my behalf while I was still a sinner Christ died for me; an since I accepted Gods free gift, Christ, as my personal Lord & Savior. Now "neither height nor depth nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Now I don't need any man or woman, friend or family, associate or critic to tell me my worth or give me approval because God Himself has CHOSEN ME & that alone gives me all the validation I need to be myself!!! If He's doing it for me I know without a doubt He can do it for you!! He's waiting on us to let Him in He's waiting on us to choose Him & He doesn't promise it'll be smooth sailing, bad habits take time to break, life still comes at you 100mph; but He guarantees that it'll be worth it beyond our wildest imagination. He just simply ask that we trust Him an follow Him. It's our choice whether we choose to settle for mediocre or dare to take a risk for greatness… that has the capability to change your life forever.
H E A V Y.
"Hope Exists Agape Validates You"