Night after night I can't seem to stop the cryin
my stomach starts to cramp from all the pain,
by myself Lord what's the point in tryin?
when everyone's advice is all the same;
"stop thinkin the impossible is possible
settle for this mediocre life instead
cause strugglin Josiah the way your bank account been strugglin
nigga you'd be better off playin dead"
all I ever wanted was acceptance
screw money but apparently u need it jus to live
is real love better than a double tap or is that kinda love really just a myth...
hard to keep the faith when love ones doubt me I take there lack of likes comments repost replies an retweets as evidence to an offense
God are you angry wit me? You kno what I've concluded already so in advance I do repent
I'm sorry I'm older wit mad little to show for
I'm sorry I don't have a clue on what to do next Im sorry I cant reach the standard of perfection I'm sorry I hold grudges & desire sex
I'm sorry I thought my worth was more than worthless
I'm sorry I can't help others see the proof
all I wanted was to heal myself an others wit this artistry im makin but I guess since I'm not famous it's not true I guess since I'm not famous I'm not kool enough to notice inna room I guess since I'm not famous it's f$@! me too huh?
these are most the thoughts driftin in my head now I would hide em but really what's the use I could go on a tangent bout social media but its my fault for letting it beat me til I'm blue
I'm just a broken person wit broken language not lookin for no handouts I just wanted to taste an see love was true... yet night after night I can't seem to stop the cryin someone told me these tears would help me
(as I find a picture to post to social media maybe two)
oooo I get so frustrated at the thought of cryin so I refuse to let em fall cause what's the use if I killed my self tonight (after I've posted) I doubt ppl would miss me minus the student loans bill collectors an my landlord when the rent is due
*insert aimless scrolling & double tapping*
don't bother tryna call or tryna text me infact don't even post about me when the funeral is thru the whole time I was checkin up on all my loved ones yet couldn't find the love for the only one who knew
Casualty of The Unseen Battle